well I told him

that his hygiene sucks--- and now he says he will bath at least once a day.  I sure hope so.

I think its kinda an eye opener for him that I am so unhappy.  I don't want to live where I sneak into bed at night after him (or sneak in before him)  I want to feel loved and respected.

And contrary to his belief, its not my mothers fault.  Sigh.

Well its over-- sigh

The Bar Mitzvah seemed to go very well.  Everything was beautiful and Michael did very well. The food and the DJ were fabulous.  now I am just completely exhausted.  :-)

I have to gear my self up for the talk with my dh.  I am so unhappy in the marriage-- I have to do something.......

Getting nervous

Can it really be only a few more days till the bar mitzvah??  The centerpieces I am doing for the shul luncheon are done. My fingers are sore but the job is done!!  Yah!!  Pictures are Thursday.  And now its snowy and nasty here.  Hoping the bad weather all gets out of our way-- no snow on Saturday.  Please!!  Please no snow then.

My little maltese are sooo cute and so faithful and loyal.  They are my little shadows.  I love having them follow me around everywhere!!

Please no snow!!!

9 days till the bar mitzvah

I sit here on hold with work because my computer won't connect.  Sigh.  Nine more days till the big day.  Arrghhh!  :-)

Okay, I mentioned unhappily married.  Why?  My DH is not big on hygiene-- he only rarely uses deodorant.  (And yes I have told him and told him)  That is such a yuck factor I can't begin to explain how awful it is to have someone who can't even brush their teeth want to fool around with you.  Of course he thinks I am silly.  So that would be another factor, not listening to me or what I want.  He also has no ambition and has no interest in trying to make any real money.  I'm a government worker and I make 3 times what he makes.  Sigh.  I dislike sex with him a LOT.  He is too rough, wants it to go on too long and is way more into oral than I am.  Every time has to include oral.  Yuck.  Another huge factor is how he treats my daughter from a prior marriage.  He doesn't abuse her unless you consider neglecting and ignoring him abuse.  We married when she was three and now she is almost 18.  Sigh.

We won't even mention how poorly he treats my parents.  Not talking to them.....And after they have been so generous (to me but he benefits)  Its really hurtful to me.

I need to leave him.  I really do.  Sigh

First Post

I have been following blogs for a few years and find them fascinating.  But my life isn't so interesting.  But I am going to write a blog anyway.  Just for me.  Who am I?  I am a 52 year old attorney who works for the government.  I am unhappily married. (I am sure that will be a few posts later on)  I have two wonderful children- a boy who is having his bar mitzvah in 10 days.  And a girl who is graduating high school and turning 18 this February.  How is this possible?  We also have 3 lovely maltese and 1 persian cat.  Yes, I find a lot of comfort in my pets.

Okay I will send this out there and see what happens.  Hahaha